Life Circumstances (Random Blog Post)

I feel like today is the worst. day. ever. It feels as though someoneone died, someone really close to me. Infact, a part of me has died this evening. In our lives most of us are guaranteed to go through some sort of loss whether it's a death of someone close, the end of a good (or perceived to be good) relationship, or even a loss of a part of yourself you thought you had, but never had in this first place. Relating to others on an emotional level is what makes human beings so special. It's what keeps our species alive and successful. Sometimes when you think you are as good as the average human being, it turns out you are not. We are all different, of course, but those who are not socially apt are proned to be left out.

I know that logic and intellect cannot always explain why things happen, but most of the time they do. The reason why I'm an atheist is because there is no sound, logical proof for an omniscient, omnipotent and omnipresent being looking after the interest of human kind (the most flawed species in the planet). If there were such a being, whether male or female, I would ask him or her why must mankind be the way it is? I would also want to understand why are we emotional beings. I know that evolutionarily, those who were not died off as a species. Sometimes I wish I can feel like I'm truly a part of the human race. It seems as though assimilating to the "normal" standards of what a woman, let alone being human will be giving up a part of who I am. I guess there are some good qualities to being unique. I thought of myself as being proud to be human. When there are problems, we look to people, places and things to blame. Sometimes we even blame ourselves. People will come and go, what I love about having a family is that they love me unconditionally and will always be there for me.